Post by Charlotte on Oct 15, 2005 13:37:30 GMT -5
MYRKR
Without Sight
The soft winds that whispered through the trees shifted the leaves outside her window. But she would not have taken notice. Months that had passed from then and now had been filled with endless nights for the Jedi Master. She had slept almost non-stop since her leaving Ord Mantel. It was a much needed rest, for however unwanted it had become. Murra Tekal had never been one to lay down and let the physical dictate what must be done. But this, this was something completely out of her control. There had been medical staff on duty at all times, bustling around the make shift, and temporary house. They had set up a nutrient feed, running from a system that sat near her bed, down into her arm. This was the only form of medication, and supplements that her body would allow.
One of the problems with being a healer, as she was, was that the body knew what was foreign and what wasn't. It rejected any and all treatments that had not come from Murra herself. This was why the move to Myrkr. The staff had been lead to believe that should they hold up here, her natural affinity with the Force would be diminished enough to allow them to do their job.
Even still, it was slow going. They had to build a second story to the shack, elevating her room so that she would be closer to a grouping of animals who, they had been told as well, created a bubble of Force negating energy. This was where they worked on her, attempting to break and reset bones, regulating her bodily functions in an attempt to get her back on the right track. Things were a lot harder then they had expected.
Her resilience and will fought against her more times then not. Her mind wished to be healed, but it was another matter when trying to convince the body that what they were doing was good for the form. A slow, small sigh escaped from her lips and she shifted on the bed, tossed to the right slightly, pulling the tube of nutrients from her arm. It had happened dozens of times by now, and still they had not discovered a way to get around it. She was fitful when she slept, nightmares and violent dreams crept up from every corner, even in the silence and stillness that the medical staff had created for her.
A light, cool touch on Murra's arm, just above where the needle had been inserted--fingers applying gentle, firm pressure there. Someone lowly and quietly said, "You'd think that, after the fifth or sixth time that happened, someone might have tried to rig it up differently."
Somehow, though there had not be hostility in the tone, it earned a reaction all the same, and one of Murra's doctors, back toward the door, stammered something about limited equipment, caught halfway between professional insult and something that might honestly have been fear.
If it hadn't been the feeling of someone touching her arm, it would have been the sound of the voice. But she started, her eyes opening and sweeping the room in a grey-white haze. They fixated on nothing, searching for the people who had broken her sleep with unseeing eyes. This, too, was yet another thing she had lost to the Destruction. The ravaging of her form went as far deep as any psychological damage could have gone, it also affected the physical as well. Her sight, her strength...almost everything that she had been before Ord Mantel had been lost in that battle. Without the Force, she was just as nearly blind as she had pretended to be during her mission. "Who's there?"
"Don't be afraid," came an almost languid whisper. And then, though still soft, the voice became a little more lively: "How can you stand it being so silent in here, Murra? Don't you want some music or something? It's a wonder if you're not crazy from the overdose of solemnity."
There it was, that voice again. She turned her head toward the speaker and took in a deep breath. The scent was just as familiar as the voice was, but she could not place it. "The medical staff thinks that the silence will help me recover." She shook her head, pulling to sit herself up on the bed a bit, attempting to get closer to figuring it who this man was. "I think they are just full of shit..."
When she moved, the light hold on her arm released, the bleeding from the tug of the nutrient tube stopped. "I agree," said the man who, by the nearness of his voice, was standing right at her bed side--though now it sounded as if he was turned away from her slightly. "I checked into their qualifications--they're apparently well thought of. It's my theory that they're both too arrogant to admit when their chosen procedures don't work, and too frightened at being so close to the border to think with real clarity. So I'm going to try something different, with your permission."
It was nagging at her, pulling her mind into a state of puzzlement. She knew this man, she had spoken with him before, the sound of his voice...the shadowy movements that could be taken as mannerisms. She had definitely talked to him before. "...What would you like to try?"
He was watching her face as it slowly came back to life, energized perhaps more by the little puzzle than by the conversation. That was a good sign. It suggested that she had not 'given up' as he'd been told she had due to the continual failure of her doctors' attempts. It suggested that she was bored, and probably depressed, and he knew that those things could kill a person more completely than a slug, sometimes. Those things helped you to kill yourself.
"I'm going to supply your body with the means to repair itself, with materials from itself. Provide the groundwork for it to regain its own strength, so that, if and when I might need to work more acutely, you won't kick off before I'm finished. ... Basically, I'm going to give you the raw energy, and you're going to heal yourself."
Part of her attention had now gone into the prospect of being allowed to heal herself. These doctors with their fancy medical knowledge, and the ever present machines...they always pushed the synthetic, causing harm in other areas while healing that which stood at the forefront. This, what this man was offering to her, was something far more promising. But, he was still unknown to her mind, still unrecognized through the haze and passage of time. "Before I agree to this, who sent you here?" She had her reasons for asking, it would be another area to start from. Just another lead to follow mentally in order to reach the object and completion of this puzzle.
"Cato mentioned that, even in your present condition, you might kick the ass of any stranger who came around, poking and prodding and playing games like... not telling you who they are. I could see the logic in that."
She nodded slowly, feeling a bit of an incredulous smile spreading to her lips. "Cato was correct in that mentioning. But, as your voice is familiar to me, I would be far more lenient then to actually 'kick' your ass..."
The man chuckled. "I throw myself upon your mercy, Master Tekal. But we might as well be strangers, I think. We've only spoken twice. Once on Tatooine, and once on Drall. I acquired one of your lightsabers on Naboo, but you'd already vacated the area."
Once on Tatooine, and then on Drall? Well, that could have been a number of people, in any given order among the two planets. But, there was only one person who's voice had sounded even remotely like the one she was hearing now. "Sadhric?!" Disbelief was most prominent within her voice. There were no walls to put her emotions behind, she was normal here on Myrkr, not the Force wielding Jedi Master who had gotten into trouble more times then she could have counted.
The silence from his direction suggested that he'd gone very still. Inhumanly still. But softly, he said, "This is your chance to refuse my help."
There were certainly holes that had to be filled in. The last she had heard of him, Sadhric had been imprisoned by Phobos. But, those were stories to be shared at another time, if at all. She took in a deep breath, feeling the constriction in her chest. Those damn doctors..."Sadhric, you came here to help me. Caedmon would not have sent you here unless he trusted you to do whatever you could for me. I wont turn you away."
"Good." He drew in a quiet breath. "I don't know how long this might take. I've never done this before. But what I have in mind should amount to exactly what I said before: Bodies know innately what they are supposed to be. They recognize when they are not what they are meant to be. They are exhaustively programmed machines adept at self-repair. If we give them what they need, they will use it more efficiently than physicians ever could. In your case, I'm going to have to undo some of the healing that's already been done, particularly in your bones, but it won't be in as crude a sense as breaking and setting. And, Force or no Force, the less you're afraid of what's happening, the smoother it will go, so when you have questions, ask them... This could take anywhere from a month to two years, so you'll have plenty of time for them."
She nodded to his words, settling herself back against the bed in a far more comfortable position. It all sounded promising enough, this was what she had been looking for. The alternative to conventional medicine always seemed far more radical in words, then it did when put into its practical uses. "I trust my body to your hands, Sadhric...no matter how long it will take."
If he reacted to that kind of faith, it wasn't audible. "We'll start as soon as I've got everything prepared. Until then... What would you like to listen to?"
Without Sight
The soft winds that whispered through the trees shifted the leaves outside her window. But she would not have taken notice. Months that had passed from then and now had been filled with endless nights for the Jedi Master. She had slept almost non-stop since her leaving Ord Mantel. It was a much needed rest, for however unwanted it had become. Murra Tekal had never been one to lay down and let the physical dictate what must be done. But this, this was something completely out of her control. There had been medical staff on duty at all times, bustling around the make shift, and temporary house. They had set up a nutrient feed, running from a system that sat near her bed, down into her arm. This was the only form of medication, and supplements that her body would allow.
One of the problems with being a healer, as she was, was that the body knew what was foreign and what wasn't. It rejected any and all treatments that had not come from Murra herself. This was why the move to Myrkr. The staff had been lead to believe that should they hold up here, her natural affinity with the Force would be diminished enough to allow them to do their job.
Even still, it was slow going. They had to build a second story to the shack, elevating her room so that she would be closer to a grouping of animals who, they had been told as well, created a bubble of Force negating energy. This was where they worked on her, attempting to break and reset bones, regulating her bodily functions in an attempt to get her back on the right track. Things were a lot harder then they had expected.
Her resilience and will fought against her more times then not. Her mind wished to be healed, but it was another matter when trying to convince the body that what they were doing was good for the form. A slow, small sigh escaped from her lips and she shifted on the bed, tossed to the right slightly, pulling the tube of nutrients from her arm. It had happened dozens of times by now, and still they had not discovered a way to get around it. She was fitful when she slept, nightmares and violent dreams crept up from every corner, even in the silence and stillness that the medical staff had created for her.
A light, cool touch on Murra's arm, just above where the needle had been inserted--fingers applying gentle, firm pressure there. Someone lowly and quietly said, "You'd think that, after the fifth or sixth time that happened, someone might have tried to rig it up differently."
Somehow, though there had not be hostility in the tone, it earned a reaction all the same, and one of Murra's doctors, back toward the door, stammered something about limited equipment, caught halfway between professional insult and something that might honestly have been fear.
If it hadn't been the feeling of someone touching her arm, it would have been the sound of the voice. But she started, her eyes opening and sweeping the room in a grey-white haze. They fixated on nothing, searching for the people who had broken her sleep with unseeing eyes. This, too, was yet another thing she had lost to the Destruction. The ravaging of her form went as far deep as any psychological damage could have gone, it also affected the physical as well. Her sight, her strength...almost everything that she had been before Ord Mantel had been lost in that battle. Without the Force, she was just as nearly blind as she had pretended to be during her mission. "Who's there?"
"Don't be afraid," came an almost languid whisper. And then, though still soft, the voice became a little more lively: "How can you stand it being so silent in here, Murra? Don't you want some music or something? It's a wonder if you're not crazy from the overdose of solemnity."
There it was, that voice again. She turned her head toward the speaker and took in a deep breath. The scent was just as familiar as the voice was, but she could not place it. "The medical staff thinks that the silence will help me recover." She shook her head, pulling to sit herself up on the bed a bit, attempting to get closer to figuring it who this man was. "I think they are just full of shit..."
When she moved, the light hold on her arm released, the bleeding from the tug of the nutrient tube stopped. "I agree," said the man who, by the nearness of his voice, was standing right at her bed side--though now it sounded as if he was turned away from her slightly. "I checked into their qualifications--they're apparently well thought of. It's my theory that they're both too arrogant to admit when their chosen procedures don't work, and too frightened at being so close to the border to think with real clarity. So I'm going to try something different, with your permission."
It was nagging at her, pulling her mind into a state of puzzlement. She knew this man, she had spoken with him before, the sound of his voice...the shadowy movements that could be taken as mannerisms. She had definitely talked to him before. "...What would you like to try?"
He was watching her face as it slowly came back to life, energized perhaps more by the little puzzle than by the conversation. That was a good sign. It suggested that she had not 'given up' as he'd been told she had due to the continual failure of her doctors' attempts. It suggested that she was bored, and probably depressed, and he knew that those things could kill a person more completely than a slug, sometimes. Those things helped you to kill yourself.
"I'm going to supply your body with the means to repair itself, with materials from itself. Provide the groundwork for it to regain its own strength, so that, if and when I might need to work more acutely, you won't kick off before I'm finished. ... Basically, I'm going to give you the raw energy, and you're going to heal yourself."
Part of her attention had now gone into the prospect of being allowed to heal herself. These doctors with their fancy medical knowledge, and the ever present machines...they always pushed the synthetic, causing harm in other areas while healing that which stood at the forefront. This, what this man was offering to her, was something far more promising. But, he was still unknown to her mind, still unrecognized through the haze and passage of time. "Before I agree to this, who sent you here?" She had her reasons for asking, it would be another area to start from. Just another lead to follow mentally in order to reach the object and completion of this puzzle.
"Cato mentioned that, even in your present condition, you might kick the ass of any stranger who came around, poking and prodding and playing games like... not telling you who they are. I could see the logic in that."
She nodded slowly, feeling a bit of an incredulous smile spreading to her lips. "Cato was correct in that mentioning. But, as your voice is familiar to me, I would be far more lenient then to actually 'kick' your ass..."
The man chuckled. "I throw myself upon your mercy, Master Tekal. But we might as well be strangers, I think. We've only spoken twice. Once on Tatooine, and once on Drall. I acquired one of your lightsabers on Naboo, but you'd already vacated the area."
Once on Tatooine, and then on Drall? Well, that could have been a number of people, in any given order among the two planets. But, there was only one person who's voice had sounded even remotely like the one she was hearing now. "Sadhric?!" Disbelief was most prominent within her voice. There were no walls to put her emotions behind, she was normal here on Myrkr, not the Force wielding Jedi Master who had gotten into trouble more times then she could have counted.
The silence from his direction suggested that he'd gone very still. Inhumanly still. But softly, he said, "This is your chance to refuse my help."
There were certainly holes that had to be filled in. The last she had heard of him, Sadhric had been imprisoned by Phobos. But, those were stories to be shared at another time, if at all. She took in a deep breath, feeling the constriction in her chest. Those damn doctors..."Sadhric, you came here to help me. Caedmon would not have sent you here unless he trusted you to do whatever you could for me. I wont turn you away."
"Good." He drew in a quiet breath. "I don't know how long this might take. I've never done this before. But what I have in mind should amount to exactly what I said before: Bodies know innately what they are supposed to be. They recognize when they are not what they are meant to be. They are exhaustively programmed machines adept at self-repair. If we give them what they need, they will use it more efficiently than physicians ever could. In your case, I'm going to have to undo some of the healing that's already been done, particularly in your bones, but it won't be in as crude a sense as breaking and setting. And, Force or no Force, the less you're afraid of what's happening, the smoother it will go, so when you have questions, ask them... This could take anywhere from a month to two years, so you'll have plenty of time for them."
She nodded to his words, settling herself back against the bed in a far more comfortable position. It all sounded promising enough, this was what she had been looking for. The alternative to conventional medicine always seemed far more radical in words, then it did when put into its practical uses. "I trust my body to your hands, Sadhric...no matter how long it will take."
If he reacted to that kind of faith, it wasn't audible. "We'll start as soon as I've got everything prepared. Until then... What would you like to listen to?"